Join the Journey

About two years ago, I made a decision that changed my life forever. Much as the Hockey Player, Theo Fleury, in the video below and many others I have since met, I chose to leave what I now call Mainstream life and taking off my mask. I had no idea what I would face in […]

For Auld Lang Syne My Friend

For auld lang syne, my friend we’ll take a cup of kindness yet. As we close out 2018, I look toward a new chapter in 2019, so let’s do some reflecting together. We who share mental disorders, know that Holiday time can and always will be a huge trigger for most of us. The majority […]

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL

The other week my husband brought me home a warm, snuggly sweatshirt that had a saying on it, “The Struggle Is Real”. We both shared an awkward chuckle as I embraced him, thanking him for his realization and cognizance of the fact that, the struggle (any struggle) is real. I often wear it to Doctors […]

FALALALA LLAMA

For the first time ever, we changed things up and chose not to stay home for Thanksgiving. Instead, we took off for Nashville, TN and had one of the most rewarding family trips to date! Prior to embarking to spend 5 days in an Air B&B condo with my daughter and son-in-law, I made some […]

THE POSITIVE TRAITS OF BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER

We’ve all seen many writings about the horrible traits of Borderline Personality Disorder showing the disorder in a very negative light. You may have heard those of us with BPD described as highly manipulative, needy, demanding, flighty, volatile, dramatic, emotional, abusive – the list goes on. I vividly remember telling my Dialectical Behavioral Therapist (DBT) […]

TALKING TO OURSELVES

Having a sales career for over 20 years with Mary Kay Cosmetics, they taught me much about the aspect of positive vs. negative self-talk. I learned to use visualization of positive outcomes, in addition to positive affirmations in order to achieve more sales to increase my customer base. They gave us the best of the […]

Cascading Trigger Issues

Lamentations 3:33 MSG Bible; Philippians 1:6; Hebrews 13:20-21; James 1:3-4 NLT (God) takes no pleasure in making life hard, in throwing roadblocks in the way. God began doing a good work in you, and I am sure he will continue it until it is finished when Jesus Christ comes again. I pray that the God […]

Minimization

Those of us who suffer with any mental disorder may find at times that their thoughts, symptoms, and even very existence, may be minimized by others. Even close family members may have a tendency to fall prey to this behavior. It stems from many things however, I believe mostly from dealing with the person with […]

A WALK INTO THE UNDERBELLY OF DARKNESS

I have struggled greatly with the decision to allow myself to write this Blog and for it to be posted on our Searching for Grey page. Although my blogs and story may seem like much to some, they are nothing compared to what I am about to share regarding sexual abuse. I would suggest that, […]

Living Without Grey

“You will continue to suffer if you have an emotional reaction to everything that is said to you.  True power is sitting back and observing things with logic.  True power is restraint.  If words control you that means everyone else can control you.  Breathe and allow things to pass.”  Warren Buffett  The other day, my […]